This is my 3rd time on Weight Watchers. Obviously there is a pattern here but it's a positive one. Weight Watchers actually works! In 2004 I lost quite a bit of weight - 157 lbs down to a low of 122 and I kept it off for 2 1/2 years until I got pregnant with Jackson.

In 2007 I went from a high of 185 (delivery day with Jackson) to a low of 138 when surprise!, I got pregnant with Jacob. I delivered Jacob on June 22nd of this year at a high of 195 and am currently sitting right around 150.

Ideally I'd like to be right around 130 so I have about 20 more lbs to go. The problem is, this time the weight is just sticking to me. Also - for some reason my will power bites. The first time I lost the weight I was so gung-ho! I never had "bad" days, I rarely used my freebie flex points and I consistantly dropped 2-3 lbs a week. This time around its an uphill struggle and I'm not quite sure what the difference is... I don't want to be stuck at this weight - first off it's not healthy, second off - it's pretty unflattering on my somewhat compact little 5'4 frame.

I'm debating if perhaps I'm overloading myself? I have a goal to run a 1/2 marathon in March and I can barely struggle through 2 miles now (YIKES!) and I want to get down to 130 plus, I have 2 children under the age of 2. I might be a bit ambitious - but I want to believe in myself. The problem is, I can't make myself believe that I really believe...