Gotta...

I've gotta get in shape. I'm mean, I'm in shape - it's just not a shape I want to own long term.

Current Shape - Kinda round, definately soft and cushy. Belly tends to "slosh" to one side when I lay down on my side. Standing up? Tummy definately hangs down. Love handles? Oh yeah - those hang down over my hips too. The other day I lifted them up with my hands and GASP, actually saw my hips and pondered what it would look like if I didn't have to hold up the love handles and they actually disappeared.

Desired Shape - Slightly rounded, femmy with a little bit of "I could kick your booty if I needed to - or at least put up a good fight". The tummy should still be a bit soft for Jack to lay his little head on - 'cause, let's be honest, mama's should be a bit squishy.

Goal: Get to desired shape and weight (130) by Jan 1. That's only 20 lbs... I can do this right? Oh, I'm motivated to get motivated...how do I get motivated? It's like I want that hot designer purse, I'm motivated to have it on my little arm but I lack the dedication to save for it. I'm a loser...and I want to lose weight...will the ironies never cease?